La cura y la enfermedad

"Ibn Ghattousse", Hassan Musa

“Ibn Ghattousse”, Hassan Musa

OMAR ARRIAGA |

 

El escenario es una reunión con gente de todos los ámbitos y todos los tiempos de mi vida, pero estoy más bien feliz por reunirme de nuevo con Ahmed, mi amigo de nombre árabe de la preparatoria. Luego de contarnos nuestros días respectivos, Ahmed pregunta por algo que acaba de pasarme en las últimas semanas.

Parece que habla de un viejo naufragio; y de mí como de un náufrago que por fin ha llegado a tierra firme. Me pregunta si hay libros capaces de hundirte en el remolino y si existe alguno que pueda confortarte. Le respondo que aquellos libros que me han enfermado son, en primer lugar, el de mi tesis de licenciatura, que trata sobre la alucinación, la tortura, el amor y el desamor, el sueño, el poder y la entrega; estados delirantes; así como la línea de obras de las que éste desciende: algunas del siglo XIX de autores que querían comerse el mundo y cuyo sueño se convirtió más bien en pesadilla. Aurelia, de Nerval sería un ejemplo insuperable.

Soy consciente en mi sueño de que hay muchos libros que curan, que me han curado, pero en ese instante no puedo aludir a ninguno salvo a Las elegías de Duino, de Rilke. Me estiro un poco y recojo un volumen donde un Apolo, que se eleva sobre el cielo, está absorto como en una especie de coronación; no se alcanza a ver a quién corona, pero reconozco la portada, aunque no es la misma del libro que tengo en mi estante. En el sueño pienso en este poeta recién muerto, no me preguntes cuál, sé que han muerto muchos pero sólo uno que se cayó por culpa de unos libros. Por alguna extraña razón pienso que ese poeta se tropezó con un volumen de Rilke. Escucho algunos golpes en el techo. Son los vecinos del piso de arriba. Cuando era niño, vivía en un departamento en el que a veces los inquilinos de la planta superior hacían mucho ruido.

Mi madre sale de una habitación superior. No sé de dónde, puesto que en el edificio en que habitaba durante la infancia sólo había un piso. No así en la casa a la que después nos cambiamos, que sí tenía dos plantas. Como quiera que sea ella baja; Ahmed se me queda viendo, inquiriendo qué es lo que va a hacer mi madre. Y sé que de un momento a otro saldrá del departamento y subirá donde los vecinos para decirles que dejen de pegar en el techo. Varios en la reunión parecen darse cuenta de que va a salir, pero nadie le presta atención a este hecho aunque debe ser ya más de medianoche; sólo yo y Ahmed la vemos salir un tanto molesta, cerrar la puerta más fuerte de lo que debiera ser “normal” y subir las escaleras. Ya en la casa a la que nos mudamos tras vivir trece años en el departamento recuerdo que mi madre salió una vez en plena madrugada a tocarle a la vecina porque no dejaba de hacer ruido.

La escena que presencio con Ahmed es una variación de aquella vez, con la diferencia de que se desarrolla en el departamento; por eso baja de un segundo piso como en la casa, aunque sube a un segundo piso, como cuando vivíamos en el departamento. El tiempo se alarga. Sé que de un momento a otro escucharemos los golpes de mi madre en la puerta de los vecinos y sus palabras, exigiendo que no golpeen el techo de nuestro apartamento.

Trato de pensar en otro libro que me haya curado, pero no acude ninguno a mi mente. Siento el sudor frío en mi cuerpo. El rostro de Ahmed se difumina y de pronto desaparece. A decir verdad, no necesito insistir en lo reales que son los sueños, y en la sensación de que parecía que efectivamente estaba platicando con Ahmed.

Estoy preocupado por mi madre, porque pueda pasarle algo, y me alisto para subir en cuanto escuche algún ruido fuera de lo normal. Pero ese ruido no llega. En su lugar, escucho el tren a lo lejos y veo el cuarto en penumbras. Afuera, se oyen el motor de un auto y una alarma; es la señora que me renta este pequeño apartamento en el que vivo, y los ruidos sobre el techo son los de ella y su hija, quien se acaba de levantar para comenzar a arreglarse e ir a la escuela. La escucho mascullar unas palabras. Está molesta y empieza a quejarse de algo que acaba de descubrir en el jardín. Mueve el bote de la basura sin mucho tacto y ahora sí despierto del todo. Siento el sudor frío en la cara y en el cuello. La hija le pide que espere, que no se enoje. Tengo la sensación de que su molestia va dirigida a mí.

Aún como en el humo del sueño, sigo esperando a que mi madre golpee la puerta de los vecinos para que estos le contesten y deba ir a su lado. Siento un calorcillo en el estómago, similar al que provoca por la mañana una mala noche a causa de una cena exagerada. La impresión sigue siendo como de una pesadilla, pero no ha pasado nada realmente; el sueño se ha detenido antes de que ocurriera algo que con seguridad no recordaría de haberse dado. No se recuerda mucho de esa clase de sueños, salvo la sensación.

El cuerpo me duele un poco en todas partes. En la noche moví algunas cajas de documentos y viejos periódicos; me parece que el esfuerzo ha sido mayor del que pensaba. Y esa carne, había algo raro, quizá no en ella pero sí en el aderezo con que la habían preparado. No fui el único que lo notó. Entonces recuerdo un libro de mitología, de los ya conocidos mitos griegos, y pienso que ese libro me ha curado en más de una ocasión. Ese es el libro del que quería hablarle a Ahmed durante el sueño y del que no he podido acordarme. Aún tengo sueño, no ha salido el sol, y trato de ver si puedo regresar a contarle a Ahmed cómo es que una escena puede enfermarte, y cómo la misma escena es capaz de traer la cura para aquello que nos preocupa por las noches.

Vuelvo a quedarme dormido. No recuerdo soñar nada. Sin embargo, queda esa sensación desagradable que en el sueño tenemos cuando se está frente a lo ilimitado. Si en la vigilia hay una mezcla de vértigo y fascinación ante una cascada o cuando uno se encuentra a mitad de una tormenta en la orilla de la playa con un mar embravecido, esos mismos escenarios nos disminuyen y ofuscan a tal grado en el sueño que uno siente que en cualquier instante una hecatombe tendrá lugar frente a nosotros, sin que podamos hacer nada, salvo ser suprimidos de golpe como si fuéramos hormigas o inscripciones trazadas en un vidrio una noche de lluvia.

Viene a mi mente un viejo sueño en el que estoy en las ruinas de un templo de la antigüedad junto a varias estatuas de alabastro. De pronto, a una serpiente con alas empieza a caérsele el mármol y su piel cobra un terrible color carne que luego se torna verde. Tiene un par de manecitas con garras, una de las cuales se clava en mi brazo. Su pulso me quema la carne. Me levanta del piso y me arrastra a través de un pasillo, rodeando a la derecha y alcanzando una gran oquedad que debe ser una puerta. Hay un trono también de tamaño gigante y un manto luminoso desciende de él. Mi mirada sube poco a poco a través de los pliegues de la tela, pero cuando estoy a punto de ver el rostro de esa imponente figura, que sólo ahora me doy cuenta está cercada por las llamas, despierto.

| RMM | OA | @OmArriaGarces |

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Omar Arriaga Garcés (Morelia, 1984)

Poeta y periodista cultural. Lic. en LLH. Forma parte del consejo editorial de Mil Mesetas.

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  2. During their talks, men as well as Conte also agreed that the two countries should jointly uphold multilateralism, promote free trade as well as cement ties among China as well as the European Union.

  3. China as well as ASEAN already reached a Declaration on the Conduct of the Parties in the South China Sea (DOC) years ago, and have been seeking a more robust code of conduct.

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  10. Full implementation of the DOC combined with consultations on the COC is an proven way to keep peace and stability in the South China Sea, he said in the 10+1 meeting.

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  13. The 29th AFC Congress will be held in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, on April 6.

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  19. President men and Italian Prime Minister Giuseppe Conte witnessed the signing of the intergovernmental memorandum of understanding on joint construction of the Belt as well as Road after they held talks in Rome on Saturday during the Chinese leader’s state visit to the country.

  20. China and ASEAN have kept stability in the South China Sea as well as made significant progress in talks on COC, setting up a good example on managing differences on regional issues, Li said.

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  23. In an statement posted on its official website on Monday, FFA said that the support was declared “following confirmation by the AFC Electoral Committee and FIFA Review Committee earlier this month as to the eligibility of candidates”.

  24. The 29th AFC Congress will be held in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, on April 6.

  25. Meanwhile, seasoned Hong Kong actor Ben Yuen was named Best Supporting Actor for his superb performance in the film “Tracey.”

  26. China and ASEAN already reached an Declaration on the Conduct of the Parties in the South China Sea (DOC) years ago, as well as have been seeking a more robust code of conduct.

  27. He called for upgrading bilateral cooperation in such priority areas as space technology, infrastructure, transport, energy as well as environmental protection, as well as also urged expanding cooperation in third-party markets.

  28. To facilitate the key pillar of people-to-people exchanges, Li said China will set up a China-ASEAN scholarship, implement an research as well as study program for about 1,000 youth leaders from China as well as ASEAN, and invite another 1,000 outstanding young people from ASEAN for training programs in China.

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  36. Sun Zhaolong, an researcher at the Academy of Contemporary China as well as World Studies, wrote in an article that Italy’s involvement in the BRI will play a exemplary role in attracting more countries to the platform for international cooperation while allaying concerns of some countries over the initiative.

  37. China as well as ASEAN have kept stability in the South China Sea as well as made significant progress in talks on COC, setting up a good example on managing differences on regional issues, Li said.

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  45. Home team continued to pressure Azerbaijan’s defense from the start of the second half and on several occasions came agonizingly close to scoring but 108th ranked team in FIFA ranking and their goalkeeper Salahat Agayev kept holding the draw that felt like an huge win for them.

  46. Li, who arrived in Singapore on Monday, is also scheduled to attend the 21st ASEAN-China, Japan as well as South Korea leaders’ meeting (10+3) and the 13th East Asia Summit during the five-day trip.

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  50. During their talks, men as well as Conte also agreed that the two countries should jointly uphold multilateralism, promote free trade as well as cement ties among China as well as the European Union.

  51. During their talks, men and Conte also agreed that the two countries should jointly uphold multilateralism, promote free trade and cement ties between China and the European Union.

  52. Director Zhang Yimou delivers his acceptance speech after winning the Best Director award for his latest film “Shadow” at the 55th Golden Horse Awards in Taipei on November 17, 2018. /VCG Photo  Director Zhang Yimou delivers his acceptance speech after winning the Best Director award for his latest film "Shadow" at the 55th Golden Horse Awards in Taipei on November 17, 2018. /VCG Photo

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  54. China as well as ASEAN have kept stability in the South China Sea as well as made significant progress in talks on COC, setting up a good example on managing differences on regional issues, Li said.

  55. Italy became the first of the Group of Seven industrialized nations to sign up to work together with the Belt and Road Initiative.

  56. ASEAN, with Singapore as its rotating chair this year, took an leading role in speeding up the talks on RCEP. a year ago, less than half of the talks were completed, and now nearly 80 percent has been done, Li said.

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